Where have I been?

Well, the answer to where I've been can be summed up in one word: Here.  I've been here, but I've been uninspired in the last few weeks.  I've been in a little hole of pity.  First let me tell you I'm recovering from walking pneumonia.  This sickness took me out for a good two weeks. During this time, I've been tired and weak. I have been thinking about this blog and the lack of attention that I've given it.  Writer's block?  Perhaps.  To tell you the truth, I just didn't make the effort to devote time to writing.  But for me, if I'm not inspired to write, I have nothing to produce, therefore, I will sit down and begin typing, eventually finding myself in front of a blank screen.  In the last week, I've been recovering from walking pneumonia but I also experienced a rollercoaster ride that took me down before it brought me back up.

It started on Monday, I came back to work from a quiet weekend.  Without going into full details of the events that occurred, there were some changes at work that didn't necessarily affect me at first, but eventually did.  Sometimes you feel that things at work suck.  It was one of those weeks.  I found myself overthinking, over analyzing and then there I was in that little hole.  Help! Help! I needed to get out.  I dug the hole and then put myself in there and now I needed to get out.  I was looking at myself thinking "Where is the woman full of inspiration and positivity?". I lost my mojo for a minute.  I sat in the hole for a day or two and then as the week was about to conclude, I was reminded what I stand for. 

Snap out of it Vickie!  Just in that moment, I turned my situation over to God.  That's what he is there for.  And when we don't like what's happening, we lean not on our understanding but on His understanding.  I lost myself for a few days.  I had taken everything that I relay out to you all and threw it down the train.  I had to go back to all the encouraging words and verses that I do stand for that have gotten me through all the various points of my life.  In that moment, I was presented with an idea. 

I can't wait to tell you all what I am about to embark upon - which I will but I have to get a few things together first.

But I wanted to let you know that we all go through little moments that suck, where we feel unmotivated and lost.  You can overcome anything no matter how big or small.  Keep reminding yourself what you stand for, what you want and then go and get it!!! 

Take heart, you are headed to something bigger and better.  Stay encouraged.  If something didn't work out, don't let pity take root.  What was meant for your harm, God will use to your advantage.