Goals for the Year

Sometimes I need a good kick in the butt to keep this dream of mine alive. 

As some of you may know by past entries that I've written, you can tell I'm a bit of a introvert, I'm shy and I'm easily intimated.  (If you didn't catch that before, well that's the truth.  And maybe I'm just now making that known.).  Starting this blog and actually feeling OK with letting people in on my emotions has been BIG for me.  Gaining the confidence I have over this past year has been a astonishing, but it's also still in progress.  I can see the difference in myself, but I also know that I'm not exactly where I want to be.  It seems lately I've been tested - a lot.  I've been tested in different areas in my life where I am pulled from my comfort zone.  As I mentioned, I'm honestly really shy so taking the challenges I have just in the month of January has brought anxiety and insecurity, but through prayer and leaning toward G man for guidance I've seen how He is truly giving me the strength to handle these challenges like a champ.

A few months ago when I first started serving at Fellowship, I was approached by one the lead pastors for the women's group, Flavour Sisterhood about possibly serving as a lead for the spring semester.  I had started going to Flavour and had an idea of what being a "lead" meant, but of course, being the introvert that I am, I wanted to step up to the plate, but there went those insecurities again. I was given time to think about it, but I never gave her an answer.  Weeks and months went by and I found myself in January only weeks away from the new semester.  I started contemplating about saying yes, but then found myself going back and forth..........."I still feel like a newbie.  I rather just be a part of the group, not actually lead.  That's a lot of responsibility, do I really want to add more to my plate?  I don't know the bible that well like the other girls.  I don't really feel I'm capable or good enough to actually be a lead." Then one day I finally just told myself, this is what I want to do.  I want to inspire women. The door is opening for me and I can't back down.  So I said yes.  And then after I did that I seriously almost wished I hadn't.  The first meeting we had left me scared and intimated.  I had severe anxiety after I left that Wednesday.  I was setting myself up for failure even before I started.  Then I read my Jesus Calling and there was my answer.  

"It is through problems and failure, weakness and neediness that you learn to rely on Me.  I may infuse within you a dream that seems far beyond your reach.  You know that in yourself you cannot achieve such a goal.  Thus begins your journey of profound reliance on Me.  It is a faith-walk, taken one step at a time, leaning on Me as much as you need. This is not a path of continual success but of multiple failures.  However, each failure is followed by a growth spurt, nourished by increased reliance on Me." 

And so then my dependence in God begin and I have to tell you that I prayed and I gave my worries to God and He took them away.  The following week came and all my nerves were gone and everything just worked out so well.  What the heck was I so worried about?  I smile now just thinking how God is using all these situations to help me grow and get out of this rut of being afraid to step out of my comfort zone.  Alone I can achieve nothing, but through Him I can achieve anything.

To conclude, I just want you all to know that I'm in the process of working on bigger and better things for this blog thanks to my sister in law for being my "pusher".  Just like I mentioned at the beginning of this blog, yes, I'm in need of a kick to butt to keep dreaming for bigger and better.  Sometimes it's so easy to conform to this little room of comfort I'm in and second guessing myself if I'm capable of this or that, but what I'm thankful for is God's little angels who remind me to keep going when I don't necessarily believe in myself.  So my goals for the rest of the year are this:

1. Get comfortable with public speaking
2. Get my blog sponsored
3. Set up gatherings for my GW
4. Take some writing classes
5. Become more assertive
6. Write a minimum of 1 blog a week, but strive for 2-3 a week
7. GW shirts
8. Get more readers
9. Devote more time to different topics and ideas for GWE
10. Devote more time into FB GWE page and GWE Instagram
11. Giveaways
12. More comments!

Currently I have a little over a 100 likes on FB, my goal by summer is to reach 200 and to reach 500 by the end of the year.  I need your help.  Please share with your friends and family and help me reach this goal. 

Also, I'll also work on revamping my page to make it easier to share and include links for quick access and easier navigation.

Thank you guys for reading my blog entries and for following me on this journey.  It is because of my readers that I am striving to better this blog.  If you have any topic requests or questions just leave a comment below.  I'll be sure to respond.

Have a great week!

Vickie xo